tonight i realized something.. I was thinking a lot about family and unfortunately we don’t get to choose them they are chosen for us and we must make do with what we have. sometimes we get lucky and we receive wonderful parents who love us very much but then there are those others who aren’t so lucky and we just get what we get. i have always know that i was in the second group but i always tried to make the best of it and tried to put my best foot forward and try to be a member of my fathers family and be there for my sisters. it was not until tonight did i realize that this would most likely never happen and they are only my sisters by technicality and he is only my father by science. for some reason i am not a welcome member of that family and even though it hurts i am still going to try. because one thing that i have learned growing up is try your hardest at everything. but even though i will never give up i will never expect anything in return. God has taught me to love unconditionally; and for all of those kids who have received the short end of the parenting stick know that you are not alone and remember one day you will have wonderful children of your own and you will not make the same mistakes. always love your family no matter what but know its ok be hurt by them.
and always remember you are beautiful, special, and important.